My weekend. Sat at home and made ice cream and got ice cream and walked looking for a book that I can't find. We got second place and then made a fire in the backyard and i was laughing because of all the wine. the next day i bike to canal and sam says she and neil will come get me. i see tony in the stairwell. i get pulled from the stairwell into the floor above or the floor below but i'm not sure. in the elevator sam introduces me to the fourth passenger and he looks at me but says to them we've met and no one says anything else about it because its obvious. there is a man who wanted to pitch a tent in sam's ensuite backyard and he comes to the performance is glad to find his host having her laptop out and he says everyone should have a laptop. when the dancers were under the blanket making the the shape of what i think is like an elephant the real dog growled and his owner had to cover his eyes and and say shh. i like talking to anna. i do not say good job to nick. i have intuition. we leave and go to food and i kiss jane's hand and say for the princess. i tell paris and her boyfriend i will come to her birthday party but i don't make it. at the store with sam and yasmin the checkout lady says i look twelve when i try to buy beer. she asks if i have a lot of sisters and i don't so she says i better become close with my mother. at the park i am mad and scared but the kind you have to keep in your pocket for later. on thursday and friday it was busy and i wore my blue shoes on both days. i slept at home on friday and saturday. today i am working hard alone instead of having fun. my bed will be different.