I just realized that i do have a sister we just took a break from being sisters for about ten years. I will visit her on the island in the spring and stuff. eating too much cold air making my stomach cold which hurts but i do it on purpose. throwing everything away everything everything. i want to have 0 or 1 of every item and no more unless it's a camera or a book. i could be a wife or a tastefully anorexic nun or a monochromatic schizoid. i was excited to leave new york but after one day i just wanted to go home so i came home. i did a really good job of touching things when i went home this time better than i ever have i think because death lifts a curse sort of. so horrible for me to say. i was donating my clothes and i got the kind girl at the counter instead of the b.i.t.c.h. and she like my clothes and gave me 122 dollars. more to come sweetheart. i do miso soup with goji berries or peppermint tea with goji berries if it makes more sense. I am excited for december 17th and my hair smells like a baby in the bath. can't stop smelling my hair smells so good like a baby bath.