Ran into 2 girl on my run. number one we don't know each other but the eyes know the other one knows too. i'm always embarrassed to be running and i was so happy you were doing something more embarassing than me standing in the middle of the sidewalk taking full body selfies with duck face you didn't stop when i caught you. which makes me respect you. and then sara three times. like hi sara hi sara hi sara! on the line today feels like running. my heart is beating because i have to make fifteen stupid sandwiches and when it's over i'm laughing. and i'm happy you want a cookie. my enemy gets a sandwich and he knows i am there and should be afraid to come back if he knows i'm making his sandwich because what do you think i did to your sandwich? aren't you worried about what i did to your sandwich? don't come back to the restaurant which is my house. i'm bleeding which is strange because i've been waiting. and i waited so long i thought i wasn't going to but i am. i work six days a week at my paid job and one day a week at my unpaid job which is fine. i'm living stringently for no reason at all which always happens to me. i guess i wouldnt know if it's always because i know this has only happened twice. to me twice some people a lot so they know more about themselves than i do about me. if a story is not an instruction manual. i haven't changed one bit. i went to the beach alone and felt sick at the beach alone. i want to look beautiful in my passport photo and i'm thinking about etta's passport photo which is an american apparel bikini cropped slightly out of frame. border security might think it's merely a tanktop. but it's not it's not. i'm trying to stop licking the bowl. because it's unnecessary and wasteful. 50 licks equals one cookie. or two. but i'd rather eat the batter than the product. i wish i wasn't too tired to watch tv. it feels like i've failed because i didn't follow the plan. which was come home and watch tv. instead i cleaned up the mess of others and ate my dinner in my bedroom and watched girls on youtube even though i made a promise to the moon to quit watching girls on youtube. i'm sorry moon. sometimes i NEED girl talking about lipstick in her car.