i was actually excited to go home this time but my parent's don't want me to come home because im sick and i had a premonition that it was covid even though i've tested negative twice. i cancelled my train ticket so i'm sad. but i guess it will nice to be here for a while and not have to go into the gallery. i've never been in the house for longer than a weekend. i hope i'm healthy enough to run it would feel like such a waste to be so sick and not be able to run. i'm going to the doctor because i want to take pills again. im such an awesome hypocrite. i wonder if i'll chicken out!