The night before the trip i went shopping and went to cassette and showed zack everything i bought. i went to the park and painted my nails in the rain and little circles where the raindrops got dried in the hot pink. i got mad and cried and then i packed my bag. we woke up in the morning and packed his bag and then sam and thirteen picked us up in the car and we drove. we went shopping and then picked thirteen's friend up and went to the fake quarry. it was sixteen feet deep and hard work. we sat in the booth at stewarts and boys burger and girls ice cream (after dinner mint and dirt cake). we went to the bar that has one dollar beer and brought hot dogs from next door. we went home and built a fire in the backyard of molly's house. we fought about genius again which wes says is the most significant conflict in our relationship. i promise to never talk about it again. we got the guest bedroom i'm not sure why. there was a dirty beach that disappointed in the morning and then a beautiful pool of perfect water in a rock under a bridge that we didn't go in. we drove to the train tracks and walked far on the train tracks and then went into the trees and over some concrete and there was a hill of cut grass. i was nauseous. the real quarry was bluer. we got pina coladas at the diner then drove to roscoe. we met jim. he was drunk and kept beer in his car. he has three ex wives and one girlfriend who has been his girlfriend for twenty five years. he met her when her ex-boyfriend went to jail for trying to buy heroin from cops and he was paying in guns. and when he went to jail said hey my girlfriend needs a boyfriend if anyone is available and so there is jim. he says i am very quiet. he tried to make them decide if they were going to have a baby. his farmhouse burned down because there was a crack in the chimney. he is 80 years old and his son dan is asleep inside. he walks in a zig zag and got drafted in vietnam. we slept 2x2 in the motel room with bubbles in the air. in the morning we went to a waterfall then met a baker and went to a bookstore and then fell asleep in the car and woke up at big pink but it's more of a salmon. horse fly. ate ice cream and drove back to new york city. sam's birthday i sat at her house which used to be mine too and ate apple and tea. summer is over now and i know because of the light. at the bakery when i wrote down her name he asked if she was my friend and when said yes he said oh wow. i could not bike because i had a box of cake. i talked to jon about male art. saw a horrible ghost. amazed at myself for not caring and even laughing. we go to blue ribbon and then take a cab to myrtle pub. mike has the lights on because its past time but mike says fine just shots with me because its her birthday and he holds her hand and its just me and her. sit on the curb outside wendy's eating wendy's until the sun almost comes up. wes came home. yesterday woke up in greenpoint and and cheerios and meatballs and peas for breakfast took the dog to the park and saw thirteen. shopping and running. made yummy stick then wes came over then sam and thirteen and sam came over and we had a fire in the backyard. raccoon wants us and i threaten him with a shovel.