After i had four beer shots and one glass of wine and one beer after work i forgot the flowers on the table and cried a lot and so it took a long time to go home. he said he was not mad at me but mad was part of it. i have a respiratory infection probably as punishment but i didn't know it yet. i was on the bike when there almost could have been a tornado. i know because the wind went up instead of sideways. i wanted to pack up the box when i got home but instead i fell asleep and then went to dinner with justin and mickal. the power outlets on the left side of my bedroom were out and men were outside working for two days. i was coughing stuff up and it hurt so i knew when we were walking the dog in the park. i went home and picked all the small white stones from the rocks that were in the bottom of his fish tank and went to the studio to make a tombstone. i made three and some pants and then wes brought the table in a car that needed to be out of his kitchen. we took the bus i sat by the window and then we took the train and then walked and went to spicy village. they sat us inside next to the fish tank which was mean. went to visit luke at work got ice cream and chocolate cake felt really bad. i went home by myself. i finished my book that made me upset. it was very beautiful yesterday and i washed all my clothes and two sets of bedsheets and sent two emails and put some more red in my hair and packed the box and did not send it and went to the studio then work. very busy and not enough wineglasses. putting espresso glasses in the ice bucket to make them cold because they were hot from sitting on top of the espresso machine. and i have to give them wine in the espresso glasses and everyone is very unhappy because everything is very slow and i walk home. i have done my stretches to fix my body and swept and mopped the floor after cleaning up the mess and took the box to the post office for 24 dollars about five days to los angeles. called my mom and started making yogurt. she said he lived a long time considering someone bought him for a project. going to the studio.