Worked the tequila party and sam was living a double life and all the boys threw up. sunday mcflurry monday mcflurry some lazier than others. bingo cards of love and knowing slowly getting filled. things like crying and throwing and throwing up. quit my job but only lasted four days and came back because i have to go down with the ship because i was there kind of with hammer and nail before there was refrigeration. and it's not a job it's a cult was said to deter me but it made me stick. today i came home and helped sam straighten her hair and then made a mistake which is coffee on my empty stomach and my day slipped away because instead of going and doing what i was doing i sat on the floor and glued things together because i was scared then went to the studio and cut pieces of wood 1/8 inch too big and watched a movie and glued things together. i did not cross the bridge and i did not see justin. i look at the ground and the walls a lot. a normal life that lots of people have has taken my days away because i like to go to bed at 5am.