paid eighteen dollars to be home from home sooner than planned. mysterious sickness plus unease plus falling asleep all over the place. sitting in a restaurant in massachusetts on my mom's birthday for my mom's birthday dinner and i look out the window and justin is across the street. and so i run outside and grab him and say what is this miracle and he comes inside and says happy birthday deb. my mom wants to watch south park on her birthday. i want to drink a beer in the cafe car but my stomach hurts so i don't. i am home now and i let the cat out and we watch him tweak. tomorrow i will go to the pool and to the beach by myself. because i think it might be my last day of summer so i have to go to the pool and the beach even if it has to be alone. putting the boards in the window and turning the fan on and turning off the light night night.