It was a lot of days ago now when my necklace broke but i still think i need to say I have lots of superstitions and i think only sam understands. i told her that i keep thinking about what would happen if im at the beach and my necklace breaks in the water i would have to die at the beach because i wouldn't be able to leave. snake chain broke second time on the hottest scariest day last summer at that party that i had to leave in the middle of and was just following blake around as my shield and i was wearing my tube top and the sky was bright gray and that night i sent a text and woke up and my necklace was broken in my bed. and i put my foot down and went to the man who will give you a discount if you tell him his backstory and last week i went to him again this time the third time and i thought he should have remembered me. i told him look it broke and i need you to give me something that will never break no matter what. it is really important that it will not break no matter what. he says i can't have a snake chain and i can't have the chain i like i have to have this chain because everything else will break because my charm is so heavy. and i say i don't like the way it looks but i don' really have a choice because i have to believe you when you tell me this is the only way. and his friend in the back with the soldering iron is on his lunch break but if i come back at 5pm i can have him solder the ring shut because i told him i was scared the ring would snap and he tested how weak it was by breaking it. on the roof realized i left the chain went back and he soldered it shut and gave me the old broken chain. he tried to call me again and again he said. i think it's so ugly but i have no choice. i don't like that it's shiny and i don't like that it's big. it looks like something a boy would wear and i'm a girl. last night i learned the backstory of the crazy man on fresh pond road and i saw him last night at his ususal outpost and i hear he is doing better i wish i could tell julia the story. emma is home now. i hid some things in her bedroom temporarily. yesterday had a professional appointment with justin. yesterday made tiramisu with malibu with satya. yesterday  ****** the whole ***** don't tell him.  i'm on my big big computer. Eat the skin of the salmon and it makes me gag. Living la vida iCarly again and again and again. Sam says **** **** is gibby almost spit my dinner out.