Been eating my lunch in the courtyard. Man with a big blade came to cut open our sidewalk i yell emma emma come look and we watch the man cut open our house's face from my bedroom window. i lift string bean up to the window so he can watch too. shopping on the way to buy eggs for justin's birthday cake. biker yells at me it's kyle he says see you tomorrow but justin's birthday is tomorrow not today. east williamsburg in warm weather feels like i'm 20 years old on the blue house porch but there's no backyard to go to a party in except for india. seeing the same flowers in two places. not sleeping well but getting used to it. hoping this year's justin's birthday will go better than last year and the year before that. the year before that i didn't know him yet :) baking justin's cake right now. baking at la cantine on monday for the first time in a long time. thea asked me what i remembered how to make. yesterday walking around the lower east side trying to see if i can recite olive oil cake from memory 600g olive oil 720g sugar 600g yogurt zest of 2 juice of 6 or 3 depending 2? tsp BS 1 tsp salt 12 eggs that's as far as i can go no dries.