Slept well because i drank the stuff that makes you sleep and have weird dreams. Sophie said i'm going to russian samovar and i said it was in my dream last night. Woke up with firetrucks and watched youtube at the gym. One packet of steel cut oats buckwheat red yeast rice with the yogurt i made (first batch so a little off, not thick enough and lumpy, very sour) and half a pear and the usual stuff. one date with tahini before i ran. on my computer at home and then the doctor's office and they gave me higher strength tretinoin because i said i was worried about being beautiful and they say we have to trick the insurance company into thinking it's not cosmetic. the mark twain sequoia slice at the natural history museum made me cry so i think i'm about to get my period. getting off the train on the street west 4th i hear the person walking next to me say my name. And it's tony. he was clearing out the rest of sara's things from dunkunsthalle.... sad. crazy city criss cross. Need to text rebecca. health food store angry at the prices because they are low! so inconvenient for me to buy milk here but i have to go out of my way because the prices are low so angry. to the book store looking for ayn rand but just another medieval cookbook instead. to quarters and i am there before the other girls and everyone says i hear you know justin. the gay guy hosting says justin is really good at buying presents and texting. the table is burned like a branded  cow and i want to brand my floor table like a cow because it is my religious space. i forgot to eat protein for dinner :( and i am upset because i sat on the couch with the t shirt i wanted to wear to sleep and now i can't wear it in my bed. I am drinking my new tea that is allowed to have milk in it. Getting back into that I think i must have already said. Sargent just texted me asking me what i'm doing this weekend after i asked them what they're doing this weekend. the answer is hanging out with natasha which is only the answer once every two years. i have lots of gossip to tell her that i've been filing away. my eyes hurt so does body and heart. my computer does not work well. stupid fucking girl forgot protein at dinner. stupid for many other reasons as well (thumbs up)