Outside my window in the tree outsdide my bedroom that the man used to throw up on every night there is a widowmaker in the shape of a wishbone and only i can see it because it is only outside my window. yogurt with blueberries, rice and sweet potato and cabbage and tofu, two vodka sodas four? gin martinis a few bite of odeon food. woke up still drunk on someone's couch with a supreme bandaid on my thumb and dog bites all over my hands and lemon stuck between all my teeth like what happened. Well i've joined the gym but haven't gone because i'm scared. Today i will tape the holes in my windows and maybe i'm hoping my bedroom will be warm.