I had a moment that i haven't had in a really long time one of those new york moments. when i go in somewhere and i realize i have been here before years and years ago before i lived in new york and before i knew about new york when i was 19 and didn't know where i was. and i've been thinking about that place forever trying to wonder i wonder where i was six years ago. i always thought it was somewhere on allen street that had closed down. but actually its just right here. lady on the bench i sat on says i love your cool outfit. i put too much on my plate but i have to eat it all. too many jobs too that are asking for a lot. i can't make any changes in my time because i'm scared to say i'm sorry i can't. walking home intercept justin he says we intercepted sam too. carrying my hair straightener in my purse but i did not use it. i used to think about what it would be like sitting in the dining room once the sun goes down and now we are here doing family in the dark and i can't really see what i'm eating and i am wondering if i need glasses. dimes project has been completed. minus furikake but that is not a large problem. macrobiotic week. i'm not being a very good party girl because i don't party. it's more of a mindset.