at work david’s like priya my ex boyfriend tried to give me a baby dog. what do you call it? a puppy? he tells me he can’t have it because he has a job and a boyfriend who is jealous and a son who is six days older than me and he doesn’t want a baby dog because it’s like a real baby two thousand dollars with all the shots. he says goodbye doña priya see you next week. he says i should wear dolce and gabbana sunglasses with a small purse. i got IDed because there were tears in my eyes. my birthday party will happen with the gracious support of monster energy, tommy byrnes, and the people. i brought my cousin to time again and made amends with a professional enemy. we were both doing our jobs we were both yelling horrible words at each other we were both working the door at the boom boom room for daniel arsham’s birthday party on my birthday. Embattled garden martha graham. she stole my pills in the breakup. Montessori. im trying to be good. i’m looking in the adrian piper mirror at the museum with my mom made me so sad and i go mute and can’t say anything interesting to my mom on the train home. i ate a piece of sourdough with goat cheese and blueberry preserves and black pepper and i could say things again and im not at risk of springing a leak until later. salty salty leak. just like at sara's but they plugged it up. my mom bought me a red soldering iron and i'll write some letters and i'm going to paris but i'm not sure about it. i'm talking to myself saying things like please get excited this is no time to be grumpy. justin and joe came over sam is already over always because we are wed three ways and me and my mom cooked dinner at my house the same meal emma cooked with their mom and family on vacation. long distance. nico and matteo are here i think i will see them later. a little bit i'm drawing again. i miss being a nurse.