This will either cure me or kill me but i don’t know what “this” is. and i got touched upon at the club man put his hands on my stomach then up the shirt his goal was tits i think (made me sad and scared) that doesn’t usually happen to me and i hope it never happens again. I think it’s cool that i have a hickey i’m wearing it like a purse or a pair of earrings . sara says they’re “back like bruises.” Ioana revealing herself to be the coolest person of all time, was in charge of all the american apparels on the east coast for 15 years….can’t go to the perrotin bookstore in paris because she made out with the shop boy who is now the shop man when she was 17. the dare used to have my job. making pavlovas and slicing coppa to order i’m having a bite for me each time.  Alia came and we were the same, she went through all of my childhood belongings with my parents and it's so crazy because those are also her childhood memories. years and years and years of shared objects. at the fair all day and it turns into something else. standing tall in the booth wearing my benihana shirt and i can only walk right if my shoes go click clack click clack. we watch a man die in front of us but then we learn that he lived. blood coming out of his mouth and ears. the sound of his skull hitting the concrete floor will make me not be able to sleep tonight. sara and timmy became mom and dad vibes after we saw the man almost die. come with us do you want to go stand outside are you okay i'll get you some ice cream do you want a bite of my steak do you feel okay? their friend/artist sits me down and tells me what he has learned.  saw ian saw katie saw sarah saw kathia saw stefano. saw the eva hesse at hauser and became really sad. lunch at whole foods and became really sad. both of these things are visibly threadbare and yet i won't let them fall apart. i have no idea where i am right now (thumbs up).