Her “unmentionables.”

i spent 100 dollars so far today: train fare, iPod, 6 books. one more book. train fare. four beers four shots. 

I wrote that yesterday. because yesterday i drank coffee and it made me manic and buy a lot of things online and then i got really depressed and could not sit down or stand up so i looked out the window. and i was alone in that room for six hours so of course everything was amplified. i was in the "studio" that IS how i have to think about it. that is where the tools are and that is where i am given freedom to work on my work.

"When I was younger, thinking about whether or not I wanted children,  I always came back to this formula: if no one had told me anything about the world, I would have invented boyfriends." -SH

I ate a sandwich and it ruined my day. fuck you stupid fucking sandwich i hate you i hate you i hate you. i'm not going to the party with emma and sam tonight. i'm not going to the party because i would not fit in with the style of woman and man in attendance. i am so tired so i am not beautiful or enchanting. but am i ever lol that is something to think about. last night discussing the event that has greatest effect on our lives. i had 3 the dead body on the train tracks my dog dying and ************************************.

There's this fun idea i have that i wish i could share with you because it makes more sense for you than me. but i will do it myself alone. 

i've been experimenting with "stomache ache". I'm lucky that i have a tiny babyy.