very strange feeling day. had to go to the gallery to pick up the package that nico sent. walking there ian scares me on the street and it's like he's on speed. he's like i dumped my girlfriend started smoking again and now im ripped. and he took his jacket off and showed me his muscles. he said when a woman is that beautiful she can start to act up. i held his cigarette while he went to get my package inside because i didn't want to go inside. and then i read nico's letter and then he walked me to the train and i was worried because he was so crazy. he doesn't eat so on lunch break he just walks around. nico's letter made me very sad. i'll make a potion just like you said. i have 5 cavities which i discovered during the earthquake. three of them filled today two of them filled next week. the receptionist was a goth who said my insurance "is like really good." i've been having hard dreams recently. one's where i touch things i don't want to touch or i am lost. devon likes jesse i hope jesse likes devon. i wish we could all hang out a little bit more because it was fun. emma and i will make a list of every idea. and then we will execute every idea. so far it's just lemonade stand. i hope no one hates me or hurts me.