myrtle pub day2 and gottscheer and oberlin party with emma jesse and blake. only talked to the 2 rambs at the party which was funny. sunday sunday is the last day of school and its summer. bagels in maria hernandez with emma jesse justin liv on the first warm day is a real who's who of the world. costco crushed my spirit. but putting the chocolate cake on top of the car and i smell like summer dirt feels like drugs. we go to harlem to watch spider man. the man with the goggles has an amazing story... i keep getting broken up with then just kidding-ed. i'd just like things to be normal and nice and to get a kiss. at  his party renzo's like heard ur dating blaketheman1000's brother and i say i wouldn't say i can say that rightnow. at the fabric store i turn into an animal on my hands and knees putting my head on the ground. accidental full circle with pillows instead of curtains. my new camera which is the exact same camera as my old camera has arrived and im on cloud 9 baby. all my plates shattered in the kiln. the bartender touched emma and said i made this drink extra strong because i love drunk women but i love and forgive him. saw hanne gaby odiele on my run thought i knew it i knew it. i feel worn down. this is the last week of being alive in the only way that i have ever known really. Please leave a comment below whatshould i do in my purgatory. my parents are selling the house which is highly symbolic for the i think 4.5 of you who know what the house has done to me. what the house makes me do. i'd like to think that i will be free when the house is gone but i know better than that. my brain and body decide who i am and i have no choice but to listen :(