(dream) run into olivia berke at ps1 she fabricated it all one shoe is blue tabi other shoe is blue asics i take picture. sam is there too. maybe eleanore and maybe mary. they want cheap drinks and i say the magician for some reason, because this is all the gallery too of course. it’s on a school campus and i walk past robert malcolm and he has blue hair and blue paint on his face. i’m in the new apartment which is also the gallery but it looks different, val wants me to send the candles she had at her wedding plum scented to a male client, we are getting rid of the couch and don’t want val to see. the basement is endless storage with a foggy mirror it’s like a school with stalls. beige yellow tile beige yellow floor. there’s a girl cutting her hair in the sink. separate part of the dream. in texas at texas grandmas house but other grandma dies in it and i have to call 911 and my parents are away so i stand in the driveway just like real life.

up and down up and down there’s little bumps on my skin. life is like holding broken glass right now. the snowstorm came and hit my eyes and was water by lunch. i ran for the first time here and i’m slow and scared still. but it’s not an option because my body is being affected by my month of not running in about three ways. the lunar new year was really hard. i’m sewing curtains with peep holes. i’m making lists and checking off boxes. life is already so different. 

recipes butternut squash bean kale coconut soup caramelized cabbage shakshouka stars broth parmesan chicken pot pie. i'm making 5 valentines no more no less. some will have quotation marks.