emma's here with sam s. and emma's gone. sam m.'s here and i'm nervous. she's kissing her birthday invitations with red lipstick and spraying them with chanel. the darker looks better on her. are you going to get one? chanel. opening my drawer at work deep and its my piss jar of chanel and it smells like one year ago today when it was tomorrow is the mschf opening and i was so anxious i couldnt eat alyssia's turkey soup and that was the last day of my old life truly truly. chanel number 5 smells like the last day of my old life forever. dinner last night dinner tonight and dinner tomorrow. our rug is getting lumpy from all the stuff we've swept under it. my winner makes me cry when you say my name. my eye is infected from my mascara addiction. hurts to open and close.