yesterday got my key to the studio and order 25 pounds of white clay. i went to the bins and saw emily rosenberg, emma brownstein, and maggie crain which made me sad because i was alone and they were having fun hanging out with each other. i got some weird stuff. maybe an ice-skating dress an ice skating skirt wedge boots a sweater that i already have a men's pajama shirt and some other unimportant things. gottscheer with everyone ian is there. i text him "where are you sweetheart" and he doesnt respond i see him leaving. i'll be mad at him on tuesday in a fun way. new milestone is fighting crying in the street. i wonder what will happen. i came home and cleaned the whole house.