oh blog...what a treacherous day. our meetings with melissa i start talking and she says uh oh i wans't expecting this. she was sad and said what can i do to help what can i do to make this better for you and i said maybe nothing. she said i'm going to ask peggy but i know she's going to say no. i told her it's been really hard for me to do the manual labor part and she said we'll make the guys do it and i said no i can't ask them. and then on the cameras i saw her and matthew moving a table i was supposed to move. made me so sad. matthew is tricky tricky tricky. he knows i ratted him out and i know he's being fake. i wonder if he told melissa all the things that were accidentally told to him when we were so drunk in the uber. poker last night turned me inside out. it was me and matthew me and matthew it's all us but in the morning it feels like you're not on my side you're just on your side. in my dreams i was putting the gates down and they were destroyed but charlie said its fine. just override!