went into my old bedroom for the first time in like five years. haven't been all the way upstairs in like five years. scared the shit out of me. i thought my room would still purple because i forgot that i painted it white in highschool. went to the health food store with my mom. i said you would love this stuff (weleda skin food ultra rich cream) it smells just like ....  house paint. And she bought it because she agreed so hard. mother daughter holy grail product it often happens this way. we went to the nursing home and my grandma's roommate died after she was healthy and talking to me two days ago. my dad said the nurse said that she died at 11:07 and my dad left at 11:00pm the night she died and it sounded like there was liquid in her lungs. i got a costco membership and i feel like im getting sick again. had ice cream and dumplings for dinner and i can't wait to go back to new york and eat salad and seeds and no ice cream. saving the last 40 pages of my book for the train tomorrow.