today 2 gifts from 2 guys. one i am obsessed with in an unhealthy way and the other one i blew up my life through and i don't care about him either which way. the gourd nearly made me cry. he knocked on the door of val's office where i was banished to and said i have something for you from my garden that will make you feel better not worse (i'm sick). i thought who would appreciate this. it's the first of the season. you can't eat it just admire it. (the cbd cigarettes i don't care for)