home now. embarrassed because my cousin is staying here and he doesn't understand. so i am sad. i wish they would have told me. lunch today for my mom's birthday and then the museum. one exhibit had a ring that looked just like my necklace and when i looked closer it was made byjesus rafael soto. bought even more underwear at brandy melville. the smell of that fabric is so nostalgic like crazy. icecream on the way home my favorite flavor was sold out. so cookie dough that regret. i texted him even though i decided that i wouldn't. didn't think about how he might not respond. i'm so dehydrated for three days now. my dad says i should try meditating.